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Been really busy at UPS and Domino's but I'm still alive dispite the hopes and wishes of some of you. Anywho UPS isn't as hard as everyone tries to say it is, which is good anywho I'm about to be late so I gotta get going.
Peace bitches i mean ..
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[28 Oct 2004|12:18pm] |
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Wow, It's been a long time... sorry.. if anyone still reads this thing, Anywho I just got a 2nd job so I can roll with the big boys ... uhh AKA im moving out in Jan. Thats right ladies Andy, Nick and I are getting an appartment after Christmas.
I can't wait, now that I'm actually making decent money. Lets see I'm working at Dominos Mon-Fri 5pm-? (usually 10-12) depends on how busy we are, But I'm not also working at UPS as well Sun-Thurs (10am-3pm). So if you can't tell I'm pretty busy these days and hard to get ahold of =) I just wanna get this out there ... I got a tag for my car and now my car is registered =) I know, About damn time, But that shit was expensive. I mean comon they wanted $423 but I said something things and I only ended up paying $210.89 which was a lot better so now thats taken care of .. I'm poor again till the 5th and when I get that check I'll be poor again cuz I was supposed to pay my insurance last sunday so now it's late and I haveto pay the $10 late fee so when I get paid I have to give that away to Florida No Fault thats a nice $126 ish something like that but with two jobs I have plenty of money to go around and I need to start getting xmas stuff for my family before I do soemthing stupid and spend it on my car. Anyway time to go long day ahead of me peace I'll try to update more .. even tho I have less time now than ever.
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Well last night was fun I went out with Kim Ashley and my homie Shaun we saw R.E. 2 it was good lol and funny... i.e (kim/ashley) anywho later that night we were driving in Shaun's mom's mustang GT tryn to find a race when we find these 2 hotties in a mustang just like ours... they pull besides us and say oh nice car were llike yea we like yours too, they continue the convo and are like well do yall wanna go see a movie with us and Shaun goes Nah we just saw RE2 and im like hitting my self in the head cuz shaun is a moron ...
lol so we say our goodbyes and go back up to A&E few mins later nick says he wants to park his car somewhere cuz some cop is after him .. ok lets go to applebees nick pulls out hauls ass to applebees ... COP pulls him over we go inside like were gonna eat, I pull some strings and get us a nice front row seat ( It's good to know everyone who works there) anywho nick comes in like 10 mins later, with 3 tickets lol Careless Driving, Illegal Window Tint, Mulitlated License ( did i spell that wrong?) $215.50.... Mr. I got 11 tickets in 9 months, Mr. Im about to lose my license and get droped from my Insurance ... lol Nick you're fucked...
anyway now that were on the subject of fucked... im fucked seriously no joke i got a 2 page letter from my mom today basicly what it says is I have 2 weeks to get a job and start contributing because shes tired of working 2 jobs to support this family, the thing is ... im not here that much and when i am im either changing or sleeping i get up do my own thing leave i dont even eat here but thats not the point.
the point is she wants me to start paying for the DSL(all), and Cell phone(1/2) the thing about the dsl is .. yea its in my room BUT it wouldnt be if Brittany hadnt broke my good computer while i was in Va on spring break, after that i took over her computer as compensation for my loss, she says i dont let them use it, i dnt have a problem with them using it i just dont want them in my room when im home, so CANCEL the DSL i odnt give a fuck, Next CellPhone ... HER family plan, $90 some odd dollars a month ... im not paying 1/2 there are 3 phones not 2 i'll pay a 3rd and thats if i even keep the damn thing.
so on top of those things, I still ahve to get insurance for my car which is $1,546 for the year with $231.12 down and $128 a month, ok, and I have to get a new tag for my car $100, Registration... anywhere from $1000-200.... I can't do it all, My other option she gave me was .. to move out, so i have 2 weeks to get a good job or move out the other place i have to go is VA with my buddy richard and thats tofar away i dont want to leave everyone it sucks that would put me 13hrs from UCF and that really sucks so i have a lot of thinking to do, I'm looking for input so please if you have some lets hear it ... I gotta go this shit is stressing me out
Calandra out....
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[29 Aug 2004|06:55pm] |
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so like i started my job and uhhhh Friday i worked like 3hrs sat i worked 11 today i worked (counts fingers .. )8hrs and tomrrow ... oh lol tomrrow i have to be there at 5 30 which means i have to leave my house a 4:45 which means i have to get up at like 4am .... this shit is gonna kill me and now my mom wants me to pay for shit when i have shit i need to pay for first
she wants me to pay for the internet and part of the cellphone bill for the "FAIMLY PLAN" ....fuck it she cant disconnect her internet and take my phone i need a rear main seal 18$ piece of rubber ... $430 in labor ..... i need Insurance for my car $600 i need to get my tag and register my car $200 .... i dont have any money for this other shit so shes outa luck anywho im gonna take a shower and fuckin go to bed
Thanks for calling me back liz it was so worth staying awake :)
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[23 Aug 2004|12:27am] |
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Today sucked i didnt do shit except this black kid across the street wants to race me in his moms car... anywho all i did was take my fucking movies back and i like drove around with no gas to see if i would run out but i made it home before i ran out so yea liz starts classes tomorrow im sure that should be fun for her lol and im sure shes going to be busy i'll have to call her tomorrow and see how her first day went anyway its early and im tired so im out
Calandra out....
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[22 Aug 2004|03:27am] |
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yea so tonight i was supposed to see FATA but when we got there we kinda didnt wanna go so we sold our tickets for $50 and rolled out and blah blah blah i tried to race this kid after chris raced him and some lady called the cops and we had to bail, then we had to go pick up whats her face and 2 other whats her faces and i meet up with John B LJ and Andy and Nick so we went to play pool and i was kickin ass - then i get a call from my love liz and we talked for about 15mins and i told her my mom asked why we werent dating and i told her i didnt know. She told me that she that she didnt want me to go to a party and flirt with girls but that hasnt happenend since i told her how i felt about her and i wouldnt do that - shes the only one i wanna be with and i wouldnt let anything happen, truth is i dont want HER to do that i love her to death id do anything for her, but what ever she thinks i best i guess theres not much i can really do but be mad but that wont help so i dont know what im supposed to do anywho somehow we pissed nick off we kept crackin jokes about his sister and moved his phone and he couldnt find it so he got pissed and once he found it he went home and he just called like 5 mins ago to see what i was doin and i told him i was goin home and LJ is stayin here cuz well i dont know but yea
i guess i'll go to bed cuz i dont know what to do
liz, im serious think about it
I will always love you which ever way things work out
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[18 Aug 2004|08:22pm] |
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Everyone has .... has a "Dream Girl" they wish they could have.. someone they think about all the time and wish they could be together. I not only have a dream girl but I was able to be with her, but for only a short time .. as most of you know I went to Orlando today to help Liz move went to sleep early got up even earlier - didn't wanna miss it, I'd do anything for this girl ANYTHING... We started unloading her stuff and it hit me ... 4 years is a long time .. a really long time a lot can happen in 4yrs... Liz I love you to death and you've told me you feel the same about me - I'm willing to do what ever it takes for how ever long. I love you I really do...
after we got all her stuff outa the 2 cars we had some lunch and im thinking to my self god damnit this sux i find the one person that makes me happy and we now are seperated it really blows. I have never cared for someone this much in my whole life and im not going to give up on you.. when I left Orlando today I left a big part of me behind .. her.. I swear i will visit you as much as i can and keep in touch as well hopefully your feelings wont change because i know mine wont, and if you EVER EVER EVER need ANYTHING call me no matter what day rain or shine day or night im here for you always and forever. I feel like shit so now im going to go to bed because im so pissed off i cant be with you.
Love you always
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
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Holy shit it's been a looong time. Well last night was Sat which means I was up at A & E. We usually meet up there on Sat nights and try to set up some races, But before I went to A&E I took Liz to Solds And Stripes. We got there around 9 I think and ended up leaving at 9 45 because she gave up so I suggested that we go to my house till I had to take her home. We got here and my mom was home >.< and so we talked to her for a while and then came inside and talked about some stuff, about 30 mins later Nick shows up wanting his Radar Detector bastard.. anyway it got closer and closer to 11 so I had to take her home but I let her have my belt with that big ass star buckle, shes like now you have to come visit me to get it back im like you can have it I want to come see you anyway :) . So after I took her home I meet up with Andy Nick Jessy and I think that was it we sat at A&E for a while until some people decided to leave so we went up to 17... there were few more people but it didnt seem like anyone was gonna race so they said they heard of a new spot on 220 so we loaded up and went over there Andy took Jessy home and he went home as well.. so we continued to 220 and we get there fuckin cops all over pullin people over left and right so we stop at a gas station and think of a game plan this dude JT says there are a shit load of cars at walmart so we roll over to walmart and damn like 65 cars were there
as soon as we got out this dude comes over and says the manager at WHAT A BURGER says we can use his parking lot and he wont call the cops or anything so ... once again we are on the move to what a burger once we get there the parking lot is full so people start pulling into discount tire co. well cops show up and me and nick jump the curb and ride in the grass and get back on the road and head back to 17 when we get there a cop pulled over a SI and like 4 cops are fucking with this one guy so we go to A&E and cops are there but they arent doing anything to us
so we are chilling and someone decided they wanted to test out the GTECH so we got everyone to go
to Townsend and we were running JT's Intergra - hes get back from the run nick says i'll brb and drives off then someone got a call from a kid at the HESS station saying cops are comming town townsend so I get in my jeep haul ass back to blanding and nick calls and asks whats up i say im doin about 110 down blanding running from cops and he tells me to pull over and cut my lights off at a store i say meet me at McDonalds on Blanding. About 5mins later he shows up he told me he got pulled over but all they did was run his tag and let him go ... everyone gets scared of cops and goes home.. so im on my way home nick says if i run outa gas call him so im dring down collins rd and there is a slow ass civic with a coffee can exhaust so i pass him then he starts ridding my ass well i didnt know the little neon in front of me was his friend so the black neon is speeding up tryn to make room for the civic to pass me but im so much faster than a neon .. anyway we get to the gate station and the neon puts his left blinker on likes hes gonan turn and there is a small passing lane well i get up on him get in the passing lane and go by im prolly going 30-40 mph at this point ... he decides not to turn as im about 1/2 past him and he has to swerve not to hit me .. well there is a slow ass truck in front of me and this neon pulls beside me and says hes gonna "fuck me up" im like WHAT BITCH hes like "PULL OVER FUCKER" i said FUCK YOU and he said "ME AND MY FRIEND ARE GONNA BEAT UR ASS" well im thinking i have 2 cars wanting to kick my ass i dont know how many ppl are in the car behind me so i call up nick and tell him whats up he tells me to turn on argyle forest and head towards blanding so we can meet up and throw down. Well the pussy in the neon sees me on the phone and thinks im calling the cops so he bailed the civic was still behind me but turned into a neighbor hood. so i call nick back and tell him they stoped following me and he was like man you sure we can scrap call me back if they show up, i went home and they never showed so it was a crazy night but its nothing from the usual every day is crazy but most of them are good. So Liz told me some stuff and i told her some stuff and im really going to miss her when she leaves but im going to see her as much as i can anywho im tired as fuck so im goin back to sleep peace
oh yea Liz I LOVE YOU!
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[30 Jun 2004|09:33pm] |
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Lol some ppl just don't when to quit i.e Kim... yea lol I guess she thought that I would get pissed off because she had a friend of hers call me and ask me questions about Julz and this chick was like dumb as fuck and uhh I was fucking with her because I didnt know who she was and uhh I told her stuff then she called back and i told her different stuff so like now they dont know whats true and whats not lol but I dont care .. cuz if kim wants to know something she should ask me not be a pussy about it and have someone i dont know do it cuz id tell her but i dont know if i should be friends with her cuz shes like yea she should just ask me stuff she wants to know. so yea i think that was pretty immature of her to do that but hey shes what 16 she has some years to grow up .... and yea learn some shit like how to treat people and not hate the world and everyone in it .. she has like a fucked up view on life like no one matters but her and thats ok thats like why i moved on and didnt really try like realyl try to get back together with her so yea NICE TRY DUDE but yea it didnt work and you still have no clue whats going on with my life and id like to keep it that way sooooo Good-bye and uhhh yea bye oh yea thanks for adding closeure to my last theory .. heh
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Well I just got back from Savannah... I made awesome time i was in derian or what the fuck ever in like 45 mins. Man I was hauling ass the whole way like 110+ mph weaving in and out of traffic .. the highway is my bitch. But yea i left at 10:20 and made it here by 12 ish. I thought I was gonna get stuck there for a while because I pulled my radiator hoses to put new ones in and when we drained it we broke the drain plug ... and so I thought fuck I'll just go get a new one ... WRONG no one in the whole fucking town had one, I called like 25 stores looking for this mother fucking piece of plastic and no one had i mean no one the guy at the jeep place told me i needed a new radiator i laughed at him and drove off ... fucking simpleton anyway. I come back and everyone hates each other and everyone is fighting and some people are pissed off at me for shit i didnt even say ... let me straighten this out ... IF I DONT SAY IT (MEANING YOU, YOUR SELF DONT HEAR ME ... THEN I DIDNT SAY IT) im getting a lot of shit about stuff i had no idea i said ( because i didnt say it) so who the fuck ever keeps putting words in mymouth stop im tired of this bull shit i dont date kim anymore but i still want to be her friend so this he said she said bull shit needs to stop NOW im not fucking around i will pack my shit and fucking leave i dont care there is nothing here for me but my friends and if i lose them i have nothing left so there is no reason for me to stay. so dont talk shit about someone you dont like that i know in front of me and dont feed false ideas that you may have to other people and let them think im going to do something or i said something when infact i didnt even do or say it. If anyone has any problems with this call me id love to argue my reconciliations with you. This isnt aimed at anyone its just general info i think all of my friends should know .. i love you all and id hate to lose any of you ... im trying my best to keep it all held together
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Well me and Kim broke up the other day, I knew it was comming. I could tell that we were dying as the days slowly passed, but I didn't want to be the one to end it. She told me she wants to be friend, because she felt like I didn't have enough time for her when in actuality I had plenty of time, She never wanted to do anything with me. I don't mean it like it sounds, here is an example of what would happen.
Me:(calls Kim) Hey
Kim: Sup Nigger
Me: lol nothing you wanna do something
Kim: I don't know.
Me: ok... Uhh if you change your mind gimme a call.
Im not saying it was like that ALL time time but in general she didn't know what she wanted to do. Sometimes I'd call and she'd say she didn't feel like leaving the house, So I would go about plans with my friends and I guess I can see how she fells. I am sorry and if I could do it over I would, She is a cool person and im going to miss having her as my girlfriend, I left the choice up to her, if we were going to still be friends or not. I'd hate to lose her, but like I said it's her choice. Well today is my sisters B-day and I'm getting my shit ready cuz Im outa here tomorrow morning at like 6 my mom is gonna take care of Kass's yard Sat night cuz I wont be here obviously but I will be back I just need some time away from the ... daily routine of bullshit maybe I can get my sleeping back on track this going to bed at 8 and 9 in the morning and waking up at 4-6pm isnt working, I get in more trouble at night... but yea I have to pack and sell my self on the corner for gas money so I better get busy. Kim im sorry things didn't work out I wish they would have you are a cool person and yea bye see everyone when I get back .. whenever that may be
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My best friend is gone .... there hasnt been a day thats gone by that we hadnt hung out and now im lost i dont know waht to do with my self i woke up today and i just sat here because i didnt know what to do me and shaun never had any money but we just hung out and that was good enough and now thats hes gone im lost. I mean i've lost friends before but not one like this, Shaun is like a brother to me and him leaving for the army had fucked my head up. I know a lot of people have been affected by this im not the only one and i should stop my complaining but its not fair. He asked me to go to the buddy system with him and i told him no because its not fair to my family friends and loved ones its just not i cant do that to them and thats why i didnt do it. Well shaun im sure you wont see this but i wish you the best man good luck with basic training and please stay in touch i made a promise to you and i intend on keeping it no matter what comes of it. Stay safe and remember everyone here waiting for you dont let them down
im done
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30 questions about me for YOU_--- fill it out please and comment me your answer....BE HONEST!!!!
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Would you kiss me?
10. Would you hug me?
11. Emotionally, what stands out?
12. Do you wish I was cooler?
13. On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
14. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
15. Am I loveable?
16. How long have you known me?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. What was your first impression?
19. Do you still think that way about me now?
20. What do you think my weakness is?
21. Do you think I'll get married?
22. What makes me happy?
23. What makes me sad?
24. What reminds you of me?
25. If you could give me anything what would it be?
26. How well do you know me?
27. When's the last time you saw me?
28. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
29. Do you think I could kill someone?
30. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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so i wake up today and i get this wierd msg with kim screaming saying i hate you i hate you with some gibberish before it .... i hope everything is ok that was strange. Anyway the other night i ran outa gas on chaffe that sucked and uhh watched some street races, nicks shit overheat again so we had to wait for it to cool down and i followed him home just incase, that always sucks. Well Shaun leaves tonight and im gonna have to say that im gonna miss you man, It's going to be tough not having you around; I dont know what im going to do, we always did shit together. Hopefully Kim will spend more time with me I like her a lot :-D. Shes the best im glad shes my wonderful girlfriend uhh peace
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man back in the day when people didnt have power and ac how did they do it ... i mean my ac is broken in my house right now and its been only like 3 days and its hot as fuck everyone is miserable and this sucks luckly i have friends who love me and i can stay with them w00t. Anywho uhh i took kim to see shrek 2 we were a little early so i got to enjoy some preshow entertainment thats always nice anywho the movie got out at like 10 45 and she had to be home at 11 yea... she was home at 10:50 go me. Anyway i have to get going im trying to hook up strobe lights in my car but i need a switch of somekind i suppose so i need to go get that along with new headlights mine are fucked peace out hit up the cell if you need me its always with me if i dont answer i will call right back i usually dont hear it until the last ring ... fucking phone
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I used my first name but it didnt seem right so i played with it and i used my middle name and thats the one that seems most true
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Im a Trucker... Friday morning when i left for my dads i rode to the 912 with a trucker at 3 in the morning anyway long story short i got a car blah blah blah it over heats when i do like 120 and the speedometer only goes to 85 so it just starts spining around again lol its cool. anyway the other night me shaun and nick went to watch Troy, after about 30 mins or so of the movie my phone rings and its ashley asking for shaun. I gave him the phone and watched the movie, he came back in and told me to step outside with him. He then told me " Ashley wants us to come get her, She doesnt want to be there. Can you take her to Julz? Yea no problem. Big problem in reality, she kinda didnt tell her parents she was leaving blah blah blah they are pissed cuz i helped her " Runaway" when in actuallity i only gave her a ride. Blah blah blah her mom asked for my moms # and my mom is ready and willing to talk to her to back me up. I wasnt in the wrong and she knows it. Anyway now Kim cant go to Julz and that sucks and I have to watch my ass for a while now, Jesus Christ I fucking hate teenage drama, I dont know how i get into this bullshit but it never fails. Maybe if i wasnt so nice, yea maybe if i started being a DICK noone would ask me for anything and i would stay outa trouble since its now illegal to give someone a fucking ride to a friends house but what ever. I just want to say one more thing and it is this, Ashley your mom is a bitch and if she calls my house or my cell threating me i will slap a law suite on her ass for harassment and i can do it money is no issue, It may not be your fault but im just letting you know.
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Last night was truly what they call a "Near Death Experience" It was about 4am I was on my way home I was doing about 90mph and I decided hey fuck it im not going to stop for this light. So I kept going mid way through I saw a car crossing under the light thats right I had possibly just made the biggest mistake of my life, now sit and think of all the possible outcomes of this one decision I will give you a moment to ponder on the subject................. pretty fucked up huh? Well what happend you ask? nothing ..nothing happend I missed the car by inches mear inches. Those very few inches could have altered my life for ever fuck I could be dead now if i were traveling 91mph or 92mph who knows what could of happend who knows who I could of killed. After this I only have one thing to say - Tell those around you that you love them, let them know how much you apreshite them, you never know what could be your last day. This may sound a little fucked up but in those few seconds anything could of happend and you know what I wont change, I wont change the way I drive or the way I act or the stuff I do. It's just me it's the way I live and nobody can change me. It may sound foolish but its the truth. Anyway now that all that shit is outa the way, I got a call today it was my mom's friend he is going to drive to savannah tomorrow and he wanted to know if I wanted to ride along so I can hopefully get a car and start spending some more time with Kim. Well he called said he'd be leaveing tomorrow at 5am ... yea im thinkin your outa your fucking mind buddy i didnt even go to sleep till 6am anyway, my mom thinks I should go and look for a car, if I find one quick im comming back asap, but I will have to stay for as long as it takes. well... not really if I dont find one I plan on being back Sunday maybe Tuesday who knows. Anyway I knew I was leaving and I felt bad I really wanted to spend time with Kim so I went out and got her this  one night when I was at work she told me she wanted one I went to like 4 different places to find this thing but it was worth it that mother fucker was expensive but it's not like I dont have money anyway I hope she likes it I will be back as soon as I can and then hopefully we can spend some time together. As for Shaun where do I start .... I havent know you very long but we have a brotherly like bond that cannot be broken fuck man it wont be broken and we have already made plans for when you get out of boot camp and I expect you to stick by them. Through the good and the bad man im always here for you I wish you the best of luck and hope for a safe return I know its only boot camp but you never know what the fuck could happen. Stay true dont forget the arrangements we made.
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